🔗 Share this article Excruciating Agony: My Battle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable. The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches. Cluster headaches typically begin with severe pain around one eye that persists for several hours. Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods. What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain. One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home. Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center. Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility. Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads. Ancient medical records propose unusual remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies. It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”. The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this. In 1998, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered. In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms. Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments. A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased. Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people. But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity. The national guidelines need revising to reflect a